angel:i know what i did was a mistake
but did expect it to be a problem but problems make life interesting..
without problem there will be nth interesting

indu:problems for me means headache and dying seems better. but same mistakes i committed i know its truly my fault but once apologized everything must end but the problems keep increasing.

i took mc today and kana got test which the teacher did not mention beforehand. and well  today don’t have to run 2.4km run some more also. unfair. life is so injustice and unfair.

well narein didn't reply meaning it seems its about time i forgotten cause i have already gotten a lot of scolding from caring and concerned fellow sisters that he doesn't appreciate me and i have to forget him. but life is hard love is hard to be forgotten when it something that means so much close to the heart how to forget it.

its funny how i can still love him with all the broken pieces of my heart

i was telling the reason why i love you, for every star i saw but i ran out of stars.

i love you la pls dun tell me to hate you or forget you……………

i am so sorry! but sharmila sent all the msgs to you today! pls n thankj you pls pppl both of you dun put me in a dilema. thank you so much for smiling. thank you so much for replyin to all my msgs that is so unlike you but i am so happy. the first time you replied you know. that is well all about it. i am not going sch tmr cause me still sicky. well you neva told the reason n i never want to know the reason.

i like to live in your lies rather than hearing the painful truth.......

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THIS IS INDU'S BLOG i love you still. true or not i dun know as long as you are near i can hear your heartbeat and can always feel you when you are near if you call that a lie or stupid fine. if you don't accept me still fine lets b e friends. but i got to warn you it never is going to be possible for me. you are too kind la. that is the biggest problem i ever faced in my life with you. well has you don't know. i do know that you like sharmila. and everything from the beginning yet don't worry i will never think you as a bastard coz i will never hate you sorry for the sad news no matter what you do i will never hate you i am just a lonely sore hearted freak after three days of crying relentlessly after last friday when icried on your shoulders sharmila. well thank you so m uch for being there i could not have asked for a better friend in my life desoite the fact you kept telling me to forget him. and well despite the fact you were joking a little. pls don't worry you can never attempt to make me jealous. so sowie for your attempt to go to waste, well as for you narein, even after reading this blog like sharmila said you might have pity love or you might just think this is stupid and a waste. well whatever the decision pls dun talk to me directly i am not the kind of a person who can take all thias direct talking to heart and just ignore it. bye no matter what take care well it is kind of little late was worrie d for you in the sadangu when you kept sneezing and when atthai told mwe you were seriously having fever got even more worried sick i know you are ok now but pls pls take care. love you.

i really wish to die after confessing my emotions. all i want to do is cry.but my throat is aching. my heart is sore. i cant hate myself anymore. my wound here in my heart is unbearable. i am glad sharmila at least you are by my side. shalini i missed you so much but you spoke so little to me after you came, have you started hating me for no reason tooooooooooooooo. sharmini you are my well wisher i love you and will never forget you. nj my sisterly friend. kavin, kutchina. i am so sorryy about your father;s death. i am so sos sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i really love you like a brother. just hope all four of us can always be thick friends forever. shalu meeting it was great meeting shalini from france after two years of waiting. i am so glad she came but she spoke so lessssssss.i am hurt but i really hope she did not mean it. ndp parade narein you marched excellently your performance was good. st johns you rock!!!!!!!!!!!! the performance was super. well sharmi i had a great time with you in northpoint. dad's birthday it went well i wished at midnite strike with a cake and a teddy which said"loving you always and forever. eisa akka came. alagapan anna came. vijaya came. my twin perimas came. my mom came. i came. my dad came. arun came. done!!!!!!!!! happy national day sharmi sorry abt the unfortunate eventas in your life i fate wise saw narein thrice or more this week if i list all the time specifically my comp my hang sorrry narein........ exams are round the corner i am stressed...... goodbye narein...... my hopes were so high all i realise now is hopelessness stupidity. my second true crush in my life is officially crushed. but its really going to be hard to erase the memories of you offffff my head so soon. take care. my tears were meaningless to you but never can i bring up myself to scold you even now i hate myself not you. single for life......................true love and i never go together. i cant make your heart feel somthing it won't. naaan vilagi vilagi pooren anal neee nerungi varey. i kept seeing you today 5 times. well i love you always so dun you dare try to stop me from loving you......

today all my feelings came flushing out of the whole in my heart. the physical scars left in bell's hands tell me how much you both loved each other. i don't want to stand in your way. i am just a stone on the ground. step on me and just walk over me. the little eye contact i had with you was sparkling hurting sorrowful. its enough, i have hurt myself well. i could have just died the day i was to be born when that stupid cord stuck onto my neck, which i miraculously survived then later the "katti" in my chin which i survived when i was just a 3months old baby. my mom doesn't know how much i love her. my dad never understands me and my expectations. i was never loved. my cousins jokingly criticizes me. love was never written in my life. sukie i feel regretful and remorseful and guilty. i knew him for 8years and i just forgot him why wouldnt forget narein? teenage attraction is not love. when will i understand that? being the only child doesnt mean luxury or alot of money. i am the most understanding teenage girl ever lived i never pester my parents for something very expensive. if they dont have money i will let go of my wishes and give my allowance and pocket money which i saved hardworkingly but then nobody appreciates that side of me.i always wanted siblings but never had one. always always always jealousy replaces my sadness. i am nice but i am sad every second of my life i spend . i am just enduring adding onto pain. each and everytime belinda asks me "do you still like narein?" a wave emotions never fails to run through me! i am so hurt, i cant cry scream or just tell someone abt it. its hard to forget its hard to remember its hard to endure it! do you hate me so much?(i know the answer narein) 100% i will never get you its fantasy dream it will always vanish once i wake up! i know it for sure! but hope, dream, can never come true is it? wishes/ do come true don't they? love a four letter word that never will enter my life nor leave my heart! the rain that cries with me is no more. all that is left is the wind that carries your your scent. my eyes only see you. your stare kills me. i hate torturing you!but it cannot be helped. i will try my best to help you, my love is 100% true but only the cries heard is left to abuse my love to be a lie. i hate you but for never failing to care for me. scold me! scold me! narein scold me! tell me to leave you! tell me to hate you! tell me my love is stupid! i just want to cry alll my life. cause i hate myself so much! nobody noticed me! i study so hard but achieve nothing. what i study is never enough all the praise goes to HIM! when is heart going to be taken as a option of love. friendship broken>? fate? i tried so hard to keep our friendship going now everything gone. each of us one corner. my life i had for you is dying narein. but suffering is what i am going through now because of you. each time i see you all i see is my heart right before my eyes. how am i ever to give up? i love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant endure it anymore, the only best thing to do is to engulf myself with this burning, achieng, hurts and wounds i will try my best to be away from you. i just want you to stay smiling always. i love you. you!

love letter 1 not a thousand words can express what i feel. your touch, your scent, is all i need to survive. you are not a luxury. you are an necessity. love letter 2 my love for you is more than the stars you can count. your live is what i need to live on, if it as to be over my death, i am willing to surrender my last breath in a wish to live with you as your shadow, in darkness i might have to be. but in my heart you stand as the sun. love i gave. hatred you gave in return. cry i did. smile you did. ignorance you did. in your faintest memory i live. in my various memories you live on, the wound you gave me did not hurt. you stabbed my heart with your killing stare it did not hurt as much either. but the hatred and vengeance you show towards me killed me the instant you rejected me on feb0308 you i will give my word that if your happiness was ever stolen, i will leave my life at your feet and fight it back with all my soul could go on, i will never survive the moment that single drop of tear drips down your cheeks. your eyes as fiery and protective.your smile as a grin or melody. your voice i would recognize even if i was dead. your love i long for till death shall i part. i believe that there is still hope and love and care and concern hidden deep beneath your heart. please give at least a little bit of it to me. please.